Thursday, June 18, 2009

I'm Left...


Everyone's walking a different path.....
At this point... we're walking together.....
There's a junction ahead....
You go left... He goes right... She goes straight....

We all parted..... & That's life...
But I just can't seem to accept it....
It's painful... and it hurts so much...

Yet... I need to grow stronger...
Face it... My ambitions and dreams are so... far high up...
It's not only an aeroplane... that I need....
I'll need a spaceshuttle....

Am I the only one building it up?
Is it that.... i've lost my crew??

There's so much....
Will my recruitment be successfull?
or Will it be just.... some slacks that work part-time......

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

I Don Feel It Anymore....

We talked.... Like it's the most normal thing in the world...
After the rage... the storm... both of us know deep inside that...
Nothing's the same again... I feel it... Yet... I don feel it anymore....

Hmph... I did the most useless thing again...
I'm lost... Without a direction... Nothing & Nobody's there to be the guide...
Desperation I feel... Need someone to save me... I'm losing myself and Home...

Homeless - Leona Lewis...

Waiting here
For you to call me
For you to tell me
That everything’s a big mistake

Waiting here
In this rainfall
Feeling so small
This dream was not suppose to break

I’m so sorry now
For the pain I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don’t love me anymore
You don’t want me anymore
There’s a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I’m homeless

In this cold
I’m walking aimless
Feeling helpless
Without a shelter from the storm

In my heart
I miss you so much
Missing your touch
And the bed that used to be so warm

I’m so sorry now
For the pain I caused you
Wont you please forgive
Please

But you don’t love me anymore
You don’t want me anymore
There’s a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I’m homeless

My, My baby
I’m sorry
Oooh

But you don’t love me anymore
You don’t want me anymore
There’s a sign on your door
No vacancy, just emptiness
Without your love
I’m homeless

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Pathetic moments...

I'm having pathetic moments.... Tears shed... and dried....
You came and went... Life goes on.... and I'll have to carry on....

Does this mean that I've been believing in lies all along??
That... I've been a fool and idiot...
Hahahahahazzzz.... Even i cant help but to laugh at myself....

The stupid me that fell So hard.... U said that u would catch me....
But now... I'm on the ground.... with bruises and wounds....
You said you would help me up... But it was just 'YOU SAID'... Nothing more...
Just things that were said.....

And now.... I'll have to stand up.... On my own.... No one's there to lend a hand... No one CAN...
My bruises and wounds would heal.... Time is the cure....
I hit the ground so hard... Who's to be blamed??
A 'Sorry' is All u can give... How Pathetic....
Next time I fall.... Will there be anyone... who's willing to catch me...??

From... A confused and self-hating Me....

Hating myself....


Lately.... I've been hating myself for hating someone...

I've always thought that I don give a damn to how ppl treat me.... I thought that I'm not emotionally vulnerable.... I thought that I wont care even if u disregard me..... I'm so wrong...

I feel so useless & worthless... I shouldn't be overwhelmed and controlled by some stupid emotions.... which bring me No good at all... I feel so stupid.... I feel anger, I feel sadness, I feel like an idiot...

I don wanna believe that emotions give such impact on me.... I don wanna believe that I care that much.... But I'm feeling it all.... Will u think that I'm weak If i'm upset just becoz of some indifferent emotions??

I don think anyone will care... It's just an insignificant me... tackling with some meaningless emotions...

From... The Emo Part of Dubb_E....

Sunday, May 3, 2009

The Night....

2nd of May 2009... I reached Kuching International Airport from KLIA.... I had been in KL for a fun holiday week... XD Even though i got muscle aches ALMOST everywhere on my legs... Urgh..... >.< Had a painful week there as well...

Nevertheless... I managed to fly back to Kuching without becoming handicapped... -,- Thanks to Salonplast... Hahazz... I rushed to Ai Ying's birthday at 'Albert & Michelle'.... and left my luggages and stuffs in the car with my bro who drove to somewhere God knows...



Some of my classmates back then in school were present.... and not to mention Norman LAME, Yen HAW<< u should know why i used BIG letters... XD, Ah Yao, Shell & Hui Li... Of course Ai Ying's there cause she's the Birthday Girl~ XD

We all talked abit while I fed myself the black pepper chicken chop... which was ordered by my friends before my arrival~ ^^ (Yea... U should be jealous cause i have considerate friends XP) Debrah arrived a bit later than me.... cause of some reasons(Yea... I'm lazy to list them all out... so what?? And i bet you wont be reading this if it's too long... XP)

After dinner, most of us went for a movie... X-men origins-Wolverine... I thought that it's quite nice.. Well... maybe that's because I'm into action movies?? Exhaustion started to overwhelm me, so I went straight home...

I drifted off on my beloved bed that I had been missing during my trip in KL... Not knowing that Drama awaits me the next morn....

And Oh?? My trip?? I told my friends bout it during the dinner at 'Albert & Michelle'... And sorry to tell that Bloggie will have to wait.... >,<

Sunday, April 26, 2009

FYI....


Yozz~ Peepsss~
This is Just to Tell y'all That...
I'll Be gone for the week~
Hence, No One will tend to Bloggie~ >.<
Sorry Bloggie~ I'll miss ya~ Muackzz~ XD

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Something Useful... Maybe??


PUT YOUR CAR KEYS BESIDE YOUR BED AT NIGHT‏

Dear all,Just for sharing. You may need to do this.

PUT YOUR CAR KEYS BESIDE YOUR BED AT NIGHT

Tell your spouse, your children, your neighbors, your parents youroffice staff, your friend, everyone you meet.

Put your car keys beside your bed at night. If you hear a noiseoutside your home or someone trying to get in your house, just pressthe panic button for your car. The alarm will be set off, and thehorn will continue to sound until either you turn it off or the carbattery dies.

This tip came from a neighborhood watch coordinator. Next time youcome home for the night and you start to put your keys away, think ofthis:It's a security alarm system that you probably already have andrequires no installation. Test it. It should go off from mosteverywhere inside your house and will keep honking until your batteryruns down or until you reset it with the button on the key chain. Itworks if you park in your driveway or garage If your car alarm goesoff when someone is trying to break in your house, odds are theburglar/rapist won't stick around...

After a few seconds all the neighbors will be looking out theirwindows to see who is out there and sure enough the criminal won'twant that. And remember to carry your keys while walking to your carin a parking lot. The alarm can work the same way there ....

This is something that should really be shared with everyone. Maybeit could save a life or a sexual abuse crime.I am sending this to everyone I know because I think it is fantastic.

Would also be useful for any other emergencies, such as a heartattack, where you can't reach a phone. eg: A lady has suggested toher elderly husband that he carry his car keys with him in case hefalls outside and she doesn't hear him. He can activate the car alarmand then she'll know there's a problem.

I got this from my uncle through email... and decided to post it here.... since i think it might be useful for some of u out there.... XD